Wow! my last post was quite long ago!

BUT
my blog's still alive~
kkthanks :D
too busy/lazy to update!

anyways
updates for the last weeks
watchedwith my buds!
the show was really
really
hilarious. rofl

anyways went to marina barrage recently.
was.. not bad
learned where excess water go to :P
anyways.
My law,
sleep whenever you're tired.
wherever u are :D


oh wells.
i needa plan my gym workout scedule soon.
going to start gym
on 28 June.
cause that's the last day of my 1 year
work attachment.
time flies really fast..
seems like it was yesterday
when i was bitching about how tough
work attachment is.
and how i miss schooling..
rofl tho i STILL miss schooling.
well, i got use to full time job..
i guess.

ANYWAYS.
look at this SHITGG. SEPTEMBER 11.
of all days!
anyways. im kinda excited.
KINDA... 25%
and 75% pissed.
THERE goes my plans! oh well.
life goes on...
but
EEE botak again.
tho i shaved my head 1 year ago. *emos*

ok.
was rewatching FMA's old OPs.
they're on par with the remakes one..
to be honest, i think the old OPs still rock.

mhmm!

and the movie's OP

total ownage cause it's sang by L`Arc~en~Ciel.

tho the new one
sang by YUI is damn nice.

ok
whatever, lots of things on my mind.
but too lazy to type out.
kthx.

lulzcornah.

ROFL OMG
DAMN CUTE LA.
Ciaossu!

HELLO, it's me, i camwhore like a little girl :D

ok. FUCK.

MY HAND IS SO FUCKING ITCHY OMG!!!!!1111!!11!11!1!1!!1one
my foul mouth can kill, seriously...

ok,
not much thing happend lately.
cept i'm in LOVE with CINE BBQCHICKEN!
LOL.
erm. yea..
if you know what i mean of cause... mmmm :)
oh yea.
did i ever mention
i hate those seriously BHB people
not girls, GUYS that are BHB.
BHB = Thick skinned motherfkin niggers. :)
eg, those who like to comment on how people look w/o looking at themselves.
oooh i'm being bitchy here.
mmm. yea.
yeap, those and people who likes to PLP
PLP = Bootlickers. :)
yea.

oh yea....
im scatching my hands while im typing this.
and it's starting to bleed...
oh how i like the sight of blood ;)
sorry,
i'm kinda sick.
hoho.

ok, shit
i realised, i got 3 more months of attachment to go.
Time flies damn fast huh.
it felt like yesterday when i 1st got into it.
and..
NS after that, i think.
oh how how sad.

yea,
i love BBQchicken
and a girl who look like a korean :x
*cough* cough* kenneth knows what i mean..
Wahahahaha. whatever.
oh yea,
i wanna change blogskin.
but i'm lazy to make 1 like i did last time.
any volunteer(s) willing to help lil old me?
:P

OH YEA, REMAKE OF FMA[Full Metal Alchemist] is HERE!

i so love love this anime.
tho i'm a animefreak!
the song from YUI is niceeeee.
and yea. FMA is awesome. go watch it.
seriously.

ok whatever, i'm so tired i'm typing rubbish now.
fuck my hand's itchy
and oh yea i love BBQchicken.
OH YEA
IM being super racist recently
cause i fkin call indians nigger whenever in came across 1.
not in their face tho,
wish i had the balls to, it'll lighten up my life.
OH YEA,
I NEEDA SERIOUSLY HIT THE PUB/CLUB SOON
i haven't drank in weeks :(.
ok.
sleep time, night.

lulzcorner.Ciaossu.

If we don't change, we don't grow.
If we don't grow, we aren't really living.

update!

FUN WEEKEND LAST WEEK zomg. lol
ok, start of with..
Saturday!
attended 1735's SPLAT! event at red dynasty paint ball park :D
uhhh soo yea. was super fun in my opinion!
tho i got a minor "lovebite" mark on my arm after the game :)i got hairy arms, damn lol.
well, when i got "shot" i just swept it off quickly
and after the game, i thought my blood was the paintball's paint
but as i took a closer look, i realised it's blood rofl.
ok whatever. had lunch with church friends,
got home, went to lot 1 to book tickets for 11.15pm's Watchmen
and went home again -.-, to take a nap.
headed down to meet up with buddies and went to watch the show.
it's a pretty awesome show. tho it's really gorey at some parts :)
which i enjoy alot. did you know i was a sadist? now u know!
i mean, comon i can play left 4 dead expert mode 3am in the morning
using headphones at calvins house, full blast,
and seriously laugh out loud when i kill zombies.
im pretty sick in the head, sorry. :(
ok. so the show was pretty awesome.was confusing at the beginning, but as the show goes on
it's pretty easy to understand.
i'd give it 8/10 stars. why?
show was too long..
and their music ain't cool. :P
ok, slept at freaking 3.30am
and woke up at 9am.
well, that's kinda bullshit cause i did that 3 times in a row.
sleep 3 wake up 9.
argh.
sunday.
went to church as usual,
was singing, and i got pretty emo.
not emo emo.
but i dunno, the lyrics
kinda remind me that "he" is still watching over me,
no matter how much of a jerk i am.
no constant praying,
and doing all those thing i was taught since i was a kid.
i feel so fkin retarded when i think about it.
my eyes was prickling after the song session.
i never thought i'd felt that way again tho.
i mean, i thought i'd hidden all types of emotions(or try to)
i dunno,
maybe, what my friend told me last time was true
im not being true to myself.
not showing my true side to people.
always trying to be a joker.
etc.

im confused to be honest.
which is the real me.
my personalities keeps changing.
joker when with my friends.
quiet guy when im working(cept the throwing of "joke" and bad remarks at each other),
quiet guy when im in church(now anyways i dun remember being quiet last time)

10 year old guy when im with my family, cousins etc.
fucking emo kid when i'm alone.
wow.
what the fuck seriously.
which is the real me. i don't know anymore.
but i am sure that the joker part was always with me.
since primary school.
i'd always try to make ppl laugh even if
i end up being an asshole in the process. :(
oh well.
i don't know myself anymore.
but
"he" knows
i wish i'd be more "holy" in some way.
but when i started to isolate myself when i was
in secondary 4
stop going to service, stop joining cg, etc.
i lost myself then,
i became a fucking full time retard with no life.
games
Every single fucking day.
i messed up my sleep time too,
messed up my schoolwork,
messed up my friendships,
messed up with everything.
gain more weight,
became more and more lazy.
ok, stop
the point is, i messed up everything during that period.
even my believes.
but i know he's still watching over me..
cause if he wasn't i wouldn't have felt that way during church service.
i was wrong, when i thought
i could hide away all my emotions,
the "cry" part anyways.
i haven't cried in years
i remembered
the last time i cried was in sec 3, and boom.
it all stopped.
till yesterday,
the sensation was back
but i didn't cry
i felt like crying.
no i don't like to show my weak side to anyone
anymore
i'd been mind fucked, several thousand times,
by my superiors, my chefs, my friends,
but
i smiled at time and gave them the international peace sign everytime.
yea the fucking middle finger.
oh well, shit.. i'm spilling out everything here.
i don't really have anyone to confide my feelings/thoughs/secrets in.
only 2 person now.
2 person in the universe, i think i could trust them with my life.
if i were to die now, my life story would be pretty
damn
pathetic. haha.
ok enough
seriously enough emoness.
i've changed.
and i know it.

BOOM, finally got my new phone yesterday.
Nokia 5800 XpressMusic.:D i was so in love with it,
but i was very tempted to get samsung pixon.
but whatever, got it means got it already.
no more liquor for the next 2 months. *cries*
ok, dammit.
went back to work today.
boring as usual,
and i freaking cut my hand again today,
as i was doing some thinking.
oh well!
ending my post for today!

oh ya, happy birthday to all march peeps!
nazlie, wella, bryan, stephanie!
if u guys ever come across my blog :)

lulzcorner.
did i tell you guys, i'm in love with this comedian.
watch and u'll understand.
but i've got a nasty sense of humor, sorry. :P

ciaossu!

Things do not change, We change.

Crossfade - Cold
Looking back at me I see
That I never really got it right
I never stopped to think of you
I'm always wrapped up in
Things I cannnot win
You are the antidote that gets me by
Something strong
Like a drug that gets me high

(Chorus)
What I really meant to say
Is I'm sorry for the way I am
I never meant to be so cold
Never meant to be so cold
(x2)

To you, I'm sorry about all the lies
Maybe in a different light
You could see me stand on my own again
Cause now i can see
You were the antidote that got me by
Something strong like a drug that got me high

(Chorus)

I never meant to be so cold

I never really wanted you to see
The screwed up side of me that I keep
Locked inside of me so deep
It always seems to get to me
I never really wanted you to go
So many things you should have known
I guess for me theres just no hope

(Chorus)

back to blog!
the song Cold from Crossfade rocks so much.
:) tho its emo from a view.
but it's really meaningful to me. haha.
im such a emo kid sometimes..
oh well.

soo.. where'd i start from. mm...
oh yea.. finally get to go to church again.. after 1&1/2 month.
lmao. so that day after i went to church..
met up with raymond, calvin and ivine for lunch at 302.
had a nice lunch and went to get stuff for our steamboat dinner!
got quite alot of food!
darn. lol
went back to cal's house and i was playing wow again.
HHAHAHHA.. still can raid 10man naxxramas on his laptop.
IM LEET.
whatever... had our steamboat dinner and slacked at his house for abit.
then headed to lot 1 MoF to had some supper.
and...
i need to stop myself from eating..
every night i go out for supper with them.
LOL. it's BADDD.
when it's around 10.30pm everytime.
so i'll just sit down and lim-kopi! :D
okok.
whatever. whatever.

emoness.
im really
really.. tired.
and confused, in a way..
sigh.
save me, someone.
should i just give up w/o even trying.
that'll make me a fucking failure/pussy.
raymond advised me not to rebuke myself..
but i can't help it. sigh.
ugh. whatever. lol.

lolzcorner. dane cook FOR THE WIN HAHAH!

Ciaossu.

People living deeply have no fear of death.

Hi all!
HAPPY CNY! gong xi fa cai!
long time nvr update already hahahah!
ok... mmmm....
lets start off with last friday!
met up with nathan, reuben, joshua, zhijing and other church friends at vivocity for dinner!
had dinner at mussel guys k, mai siao siao
my senior chef(used to work with me), is the Chef de Cuisine(headchef) there!
but retired already!
haha. food's not bad. and price's not bad.
since they got value for money set meals!

anddddd.. as i said... work on CNY eve!
wooo yea, how nice is that!
but lucky the guests that night was nice enough
to thank us for the service that night.
so it wasn't that bad..
haha.

I was OFF on Chinese Niu Year! luckily, or i'll rage at my chef,
and treat him 3 days worth of MCs(kidding, ill get a letter when i come back if i did that).
:D
went to church in the morning
and ahmah house after!
and bai nian k!
ANG BAO ALOT ALOT! hahahaha. my favourite part!
and pictures alot alot, since my cousins are crazy.
and loves to take pictures..
me and my LOLcousins. :O.saw my parents off at the airport,
since they're going overseas!
and i'm king at home for 7 days! lols:D

2nd day of cny.
started work!
just started to cut some items.
and i cut my finger... nails! no blood no nothing, cept a scar on it!
hahah it finally did something for me . after 20 years!

but 3rd day..
started to cut again.
and this time.. i see alot of blood HAHHAA,
1st thing i wanted/started to cut.
i was soooo careful!
and cut my middle finger.
my chef was like..
now still CNY leh don't liddat leh..
i was LOL-ing while i bandage my finger.

fun life i got :)
anyways went to watch movie after work with my cousins today,
cause i was tooooo fkin bored.
Bridewars.. LOL.
ok, not bad, cause i wanted to watch punisher,
but my cousins wanted to watch that,
so i was outnumbered. 3 girls for the lose.
but the show itself wasn't bad, so quite worth the $ la.
unlike the wedding game, or whatever.
:S.

ok la, damn tired now.
going to shower and sleep! long day again tmr!
going to zhaoming's house to ban luck!
hahaha. so long nvr see them also.
lookin forward to it! :D

Lulzcornah!bbz!

It's the transition that's troublesome.


something to share before i start my bullshit!
some parts are quite true. lol.
i guess.

Haven't update for quite some time!
I FINALLY CHANGED KITCHEN!!!
YES!
working shift now is 10-6pm.
but always late go home 1, so whatever lah :P
Cold kitchen
the place u do cold dishes(my fav.)
been there for 3 days
and learn alot of stuff already, from the basics to beating sauces
people there treat me well
for now..
but dunno what'll happen in future.
Pfft. no point thinking about it now anyways.
and also!
HAHAHA
IAN MISSED OUT SO MUCH
cafe for life bro!

ok not much happenings this few days
was off today, so i got some spare time to update..
went out with rong in the afternoon
and guess what!
i finally bought my CNY shirts from G2k.
althought i'm off for only 1 day, which is monday..
believe it ornot, i'm gonna miss my reunion dinner.
work in this line is liddat 1
(thats what they say la, but im a trainee for fuck's sake)
oh well. can't do anything about it.

ok like i say, nothing much to post so here's some lulz!

buh-bye!

Wow, Haven't updated for so long.
oh well.
been playing WoW ALOT. AGAIN.
since Wrath of the Lich King came out on 14th november!
:DThe free mousepad.
Met up with alot of people that day.
My guild, my ex-school mates and my buddies that used to play WoW.
hahaaa...
well
fun, my death knight is now 78.
2 more lvls to go :D

When i was 60.

Now.

The new armor sets and all looks damn nice,
SOOO much better than The Burning Crusade.
omg.

Yea. Dinging 80 soon. Fast? i got work and life k. HAHA.

ah wells.
work's been same. boring.
lol
waiting to talk to my chef if i can change kitchen soon.
im getting sick of the current place.
too many people
and leads to too many bullshit.

ok.
lulzcorner.
Ciaossu!

Some have been thought brave because they were afraid to run away.

Dead blog turning this!
UPDATE INCOMING!
5.
4.
3.
2
1

starting off with.

THERE'S A SHITON OF BACKSTABBERS IN THE WORKING LIFE.
Fucking asshats.

oh well
gotta get use to it.
sigh.

met up with geek squad after work on sunday!
lmao, there're all so dark now, ns doing them good!
ah well
i did well at work yesterday anyways.
fuck what they think, seriously
im paid like shit per month,
why do i have to work like i get 5k per month.
idiots.
oh well.
i apologize for all the "fucks" in this post, cause i'm damn pissed.

Reasonance is 3/5 Merrrrciless gladiator now yo! :D
and of cause my new weapon!
not to mention the "Jenkins" title.
LOL, Kill 50 whelps(ubrs) in 15 secs.
And there was this Zombie invasion world event a few days ago.
works like Resident Evil,
Get bite and u turn into a zombie after 10 mins.
hahaha so fun.
Cept its related to the Warcraft storyline.
which rocks cause WotlK is coming soon!
less than 1 month! w00t!

Ok, enough of games. i need a life lmao.
Sadly noone's free nowdays
due to work, ns.
pfft.

oh whatever.
some lulz.

Very old, but still funny :p
Ciaossu!

Working in the F&B line

shows you how some greedy and selfish people are.
Example, roast pork. extremely crispy skin.
but the pork itself is only
that small size
and some dude came over and told me to give him the skin
from the whole pork.
i was like "wtfuck dude, can't you see the queue behind u" in my mind.
buffet, theres more than 25 kinds of different dishes for you to take from
and you fucking want this whole thing
so others couldn't have the chance to taste it?
you're not the only fucking person paying money to eat here.
sometimes i wished i could shout at them.
pfft.
k
enough of pointless whining.


What da gimp looks like now :DChange of weapon soon tho hooo. DPS INC!
Pre-ordered my copy of Wrath of the Lich King.
most prolly going down to the event on 14th october.
Suntec City.Oh man can't wait. the excitement
like the time i went down during the launch of The Burning Crusade.

Oh ya.
Wanted to meet up with geek squad yesterday morning.
but dex just have to rest.
so didn't meet up in the end.
/sigh.
and my mind was whirling again while working yesterday.
due to some heart matters yet again
QQ.

oh well some lulz.

Ciaossu.

ohmygosh.

i smell emo post.

nearly fainted during work today.
like seriously.
was seeing double.
and when i look into the mirror i see a pale face looking back.
reason?
didn't eat breakfast and lunch.
and..
didn't sleep till 2.30 am yesterday.
i was lying on my bed, but busy thinking about some stuff.
woke up at 4.30am.
preparing for work(which is 7-3pm).
mm.. why am i like this nowadays.
perhaps i'm thinking too much.
i suck... so bad. haha.
but whatever la! need to maintain my happy face during work
i don't like to make people unhappy.

ok. enough emozone HAHA!
came home at around 5pm.
went to clean up my com side drawer.
and i found lots of old school chinese CD's i bought!
SUPPORT ORIGINAL! HAHA:).

compared with the me now.
1. They're all English or Jap songs.
2. All downloaded/got from other people music.
HAHA, STOP PIRACY! :P
oh well. whatever.

"lulzcorner" imo :)
nice bar. 'nuff said lol.
Ciaossu!

Nothing much to post about.

Except i changed my attitude towards work..
..ALOT.. Seriously.
:).
Tomorrow's gonna be a loooong day.
9am - 9pm most prolly.
How i dread doing OTs.
lol.
But...
Friday off! So... woot! :D
Got scolded for not looking at roster. lol
F*cK! Who cares about the roster?!
MY RULES! :x.
although i wouldn't dare to say it in my chef's face.

Joey from "Slipknot" Drum Solo vid!



And some Joker facts.
"Do I look like the kind of guy who has a plan? I'm like a dog chasing cars. I wouldn't know what to do with one if I caught it! You know? I just...do things"

Was emo-ing about my life when i was cutting veg's today.
Talked to one of my senior, he shared with me lots of things(in alot of ahbeng terms).
Very grateful to him tho, finally i can put my mind into work properly.
Get over this 1 year. and i can have time to think when i go into the army.
Think about what?
My future.

Philosophy of the day.
Having your favorite pastime as your full time job isn't the same.

Lulz of the day.

Ciaossu.

Being a Chef, isn't as easy as i thought it is.

Time flies really fast.

When you're having fun.
But it goes really slow.
When you're working.
Total Suck-age?
Of course.
I wish i could go back to the days of studying.
But i don't like studying.
What i miss,
is my friends in school,
as it's totally a different life in the working environment.
Plans for the future?
After i finish NS,
May find a restaurant to work in,
for 2-3 years.
And maybe try to go back to SHATEC(once i got a rank)
and apply for the post of outlet trainer.
Who knows?
Shit happens.

I'm a very lonely individual,
although i don't show it.
No Gf's no nothing.
Suffering alone and will be alone for this 1 year without a life work, home work, home.
Sucks to be me! :)


K enough of my whining. lol.
...

Rest days are hard to come by(for me).
and when it does,
i like to spent it with my friends and family.
Bball'd today with dex & co.
went to ate some fried fish macaroni(dex recommendation) after bball,
and went to ben's house to GAMBLE(no money included sadly)!
Headed home after.
There goes my rest day for the week, sucks when time flies.
And who knows,
i might be working for the next 10 days.
If my rest day for next week is Sunday.
Whatever.



-lolpics corner-
Ciaossu~

Work is so tiring.

I'm so still not used to it yet.
Which sucks.
But wth la.
What to do.
You can say i'm useless.
But it is seriously f*cking tiring.
Working and working and working. Nonstop(and it's seriously nonstop). for like what? 8 hours.
Not only it's tiring, but i'm the only 1 in our batch over there.
Go everywhere i'll see unfamiliar faces.
No friends working with you in the same hotel.
Which sucks yet again.
Some times i wished i could just quit working there,
and head back to school and apply to be SFT in Charcoal/Rosette.
But i'll most prolly miss out learning a shit load of stuff.
Which sucks... yet again.
What can i do.
Nothing. But get use to it.
Sometimes i wish i could just live like a douchebag.
But nah, i was a douchebag not gonna be one anymore.
Really hope i can get use to it, and make new friends over there.
Really soon... i hope..
Sigh.

Here's some lulz. for peeps who've watch naruto before. Enjoy.

:)
Ciaossu.